For some reason I have been seeing Hawks everywhere I go for at least the past 6 weeks. Their not just soaring around and circling the skies their on light poles, telephone poles and on many occasions freeway over passes. Is it just coincidence that these amazing birds are perched when Im passing by? From all my experiences in this life and past lives I can truly say with confidence that their are no coincidences or accidents. Yes, a couple of the Hawks are probably the same but i will be in completely different cities and my eyes will go straight to the Hawk. I live in a city that is very terrainy. is that a word? it is now.
what does this mean? the first couple of times i was like wow cool but now im wondering what these beautiful birds symbolism in my life and current situation. mother nature is always giving us signs. are we open and ready to receive them?
the first spiritual book i ever purchased was a book about ascended masters living in Mt. Shasta. i was with my girlfriend at the time and she was also very intuitive. we were in a new age bookstore in Newport Beach. i picked out this book. it was purple and gold and i just liked it for some reason. this book remained on my bookshelf for the next 8 years untouched and unread. at 28 years old im on a plane about 15,000ft in the air heading to Shanghai, China. i look out the window and their was this snow caped mountain glowing white and gold. i remember feeling amazed at the beauty of this mountain but also a sense of sadness. when i got back to my apartment in shanghai i looked up all the mountains on the flight path from LAX to Shanghai. it was Mt. Shasta.
last year i finally read the book while i was on a houseboat at Lake Shasta with the peaks of Mt. Shasta in the background. the interesting thing is that i ended up on the land of the writer of this book a couple of months later. their is a very sacred spot on their land. i was their with Jane (she also has this book on her shelf) and while there i could hear a native flute playing in the air. i told her someone was playing a flute and she said she couldnt hear anything. i tried to walk in various directions to locate the sound. it never got stronger or fainted as i walked in one direction or the next. she said people dont know about this spot or very few people knew about the spot. i would tell her again. she said she couldnt hear anything except the water flowing from the natural springs. i walked away from Jane to be alone for a moment. i did this to plant a seed because i had suspicions about Jane not being exactly who i thought she was. as i walked back towards the springs and to where Jane was i was given a message that told me, "you used to play here as a child". i've never been here before in this life time. then the flutes began to play again. i told Jane the message i received and she snapped back sharply, "when?" with a deep focus in her eyes.
the next day an agent asked me telepathically, "did you masturbate yesterday when you were up at ..... ......." this was the seed i planted. not literally. i didnt bust my load in a sacred spot on Mt. Shasta. i planted disinformation to see what hand these agents had.
The Hawk
In Native American cultures the hawk represents a messenger. It often appears in our life when we need to pay attention to the subtle messages found in our surroundings and from those we come in contact with. As with all messages received it is important to recognize its underlying truth. Because there are so many varieties of hawk its messages vary and can affect all levels of our psyche.
One thing that all hawks have in common is the skill to move between the seen and unseen realms gracefully connecting both worlds together. Their acute vision compliments this ability and their discriminating nature keeps them out of harms way. The broader vision of the hawk allows them to see what the future holds. In man this symbolizes prophetic insight. If this medicine is underdeveloped a tendency towards over analyzing everything is common. In so doing, clear vision is lost. Those who hold this totem should remember to keep their analytical mind under control and not allow it to run wild.
The hawk has many foraging techniques. The most typical in their pursuit of prey is swiftly following the animal's efforts to escape. Once the hawk has secured the prey with its powerful talons, the bird dismembers it with its sharply pointed, strong beak. In man, this suggests that we can run but we cannot hide from our destiny. Sooner of later it will catch up with us.
The destiny of all humankind is to awaken from their spiritual amnesia and realign with the original intention of their soul. When the hawk flies into our life we will be asked to evaluate who we have become and rip out the threads of our self created illusions. This enables our inner truth to surface.
Hawk signifies union with Great Spirit. A bird of the heavens the hawk orchestrates the changes necessary for our spiritual growth. Having this totem can be bitter sweet. If we accept its presence in our life we will be asked to surrender anything that doesn't honor the integrity of all life. Be it an idea, a feeling or an action. Although hard work is involved the rewards the hawk offers us are great.
I get some emails asking about why I'm in this situation and what did i DO? why do i have so much bad karma? the interesting thing is that people tend to see my situation as bad, karmically. Before the Heavenly Catalyst found me and before Seth and I met. I would probably agree with that that i had a bad bad case of the karma blues. now, i feel like i have great karma through a very exotic situation. from these situations and experiences i have grown in ways that i could not even fathom or dream about. though i have dreams about them.
when someone wins the lottery is that good karma or bad karma? what if that person does nothing to help themselves grow or others more importantly with all the money they've luckily or unluckily won? its all on how we turn our life experiences into something that we can honestly at the end our time on this planet look back at and know that what we did was the very best that we could do with what we could do it with. my perspective early on when all this stuff went down back in 2000-01 was that their must be a reason why. their must be a reason why me? i truly feel that we are never given situations that we cant handle. though daunting at first as it may seem. the lessons learned are benchmarks and bookmarks in a chapter of our lifetimes.
the agents are trying some very new and interesting techniques that they havent tried before. at least not to this degree. the dream state is another reality. the agents can pop into my sleep and create a scenario and or keep a dialogue running. yes im still sleeping but im lucid, very aware in my sleep. so much aware that my abilities and skills that i apply in the waking state are now being sharpened in the dream state. i can and do apply the H.C. very effectively. so effectively i can hear them asking each other cross talking to where i learned how to do certain things while im sleeping. when i apply something that is new to them they will immediately ask, "who taught you that?" Jesus.....then maybe layer another name or names just for kicks. this is what i mean when i say the Heavenly Catalyst works in my dreams.
the past couple of nights the agents want me to sign some sort of contract while im sleeping. they want it in my blood. right now my parents house is almost finished being completely renovated. i've been signing checks and papers left and right. i think their trying to take advantage of this.
to those people that think contracts dont exist you are fooling yourself. a problem doesnt exist if your not aware of it. many people say that their are no such things as contracts. their are and most people have done this. just because you yourself arent in a mind/soul control program doesnt mean you havent contracted an ability from a past life over to nefarious causes. you could have been tricked, coerced, tortured under duress while consenting to their evil demands. this has happened to me in many past lives. they said while i was being tortured that they would take it easy on me if i signed over a certain ability that i had. i did. they still tortured and killed me. one of the ways to find out if you have contracts of soul pieces is to get soul recovery done by a trusted practitioner and of course do the Heavenly Catalyst.
theyve also been telling me to step behind a line or picture this or play word association games to try and get my mind into a confined way of thinking. whatever they use i will say something that is impossible to measure or gauge or grasp or harness. something that is free, border-less, shapeless, formless, vastness....you get the point, yes?
Loving Kindness to All Beings.
Forgiveness & Release of All Beings.
Seeds of Devotion & Enlightenment.
